1. |
Maybe I'm Ed Wood
03:10
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Saw a man walking down the street alone
Looked liked he knew exactly where to go
This made me wonder, "what the fuck had he done?
How'd he get such clarity and direction?"
So I fantasized about jumping on his back
Taking out pent up anxiety
Spilling like white foam out of my lips
I wanted to grab him by the throat and scream
"How'd you do it, motherfucker? How'd you figure it out?"
I don't know what he'd tell me
Maybe I don't even want to hear him talk
I don't want a voice that's louder than mine
Everyone with direction deserves to die
"How'd you do it, motherfucker? How'd you figure it out?"
But I didn't go
There's no way he knows
To be so scared of not being anything that I hate people
I don't even know
What made me like this?
I'm just now seeing the problems with me
The problem's with me
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2. |
Polaroid Of A Punchbowl
04:21
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I'm done with self pity
I'm not gonna fall apart again
I'm gonna wait until this means something to me
If it means something to you
And if you tear apart where I've been living
To look for pieces of me
Make sure you burn the city down
So we don't have to talk
I can't look you in the eye
I feel like a kid admitting defeat
Bet you make a lot of people
Feel like that
This means something
It has to
I'm wide awake and I'm uncomfortable
I'm so predictable
Another boy soul searching
Scared and anxious
Why bother?
This is just apathy
Pretending to be something
I am ashamed
Can't I choose to be alright?
It's altogether making me
Really sick of my own skin
My bones are jutting out
My body wants to feel again
Give me a thought that isn't anxious
Or self effacing
Do you trust your friends? Do you trust them?
I'm seeing ghosts of old friendships
Spending time with people who don't
Think about me anymore
I slip into whatever's comfortable and easy
These two weeks are gonna feel strange
Block it out
Block it out to keep moving
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3. |
KEMF
02:31
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I wanna write smaller songs
I want you to like me
But I don't like smaller songs
I don't like smaller songs
Why's every dream popper sound the same to me?
Are they afraid?
Indie rocker, pitch shift, reverb and drum machine
It's harmless, It will always be
Cool kid, date night
It's just too little for me
Write a song, squander your soul
I see you in me
I don't like me
Oh god I should get over it
Oh god I should get over this
I want to kill every motherfucker with a guitar
Only me
Only me
Only me
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4. |
Avoiding Parables
04:25
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Nice guys finish last
You make the rest of us look bad
Not that I'm free of the lengthy appeals
You've yet to convince me that there's something you feel
Give me love
Give me growth
Give me something to keep
Give me a motherfucker that I don't want to kick in the teeth
I can tell what you really want
Oh, you're a friend
I'm not innocent
I'm not ok
I'm an enemy you don't wanna have
How many failures have I had?
How long was I a cog in it?
I'm still deconstructing
Still tearing away parts of an insidious machine
It'll never be stripped clean
Not "woe is me"
Because it's not about me
These bones move and so react
I'll take this anxious body and try to shine a light on what is real
And I hope I'm not a cancer
That's not what I came to be
Forgive this
Forgive me
Blood for bruised bodies
Give me bones for deep cuts
Give me skin for harsh words
I'm just corroding away
I want a massive change in the way you think
You might be wrong
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