Don't Do What You Love

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    Slipcover jewelcase with 20-page lyric booklet featuring 8 local artists.

    Album Art by Sophia Zarders
    Booklet Layout by Carina Taylor

    Booklet Art by Sophia Zarders, Maximo Huete, Jenny Yu, Janet Kung, April Rotelli, Carly Lake, Carina Taylor, and Julia Guzman

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“There are only two ways this’ll turn out,” you say
I have nightmares about the second one
These thoughts’ll kill me
There aren’t really friends when I come back home
Every conversation I have feels like an accident
Nobody’s fault

I should’ve made it clear how much this meant to me, tried to take an edge off anxiety, I’m sorry if I hurt you it was just a defense, it was just a defense

Everyone I’ve met in the last year
Is better than me at this
Why can’t I let that make me happy
It makes me feel sick
Don’t leave me alone, don’t leave me alone
I can’t be by myself for more than an hour
I break apart

You are exactly where you need to be
Lying on the floor
Scream until you can’t anymore

I’m watching them pass these thoughts around like they’re harmless, “do what you love” isn’t advice, it’s a threat, they’re gonna take you out, I’m gonna take you out

If I cut these parts out how much of me is left?
Just an empty passionless shell?
Was I always like this?
Let’s find out and take these scoops of black bile,
With a scalpel,
Take and take and take and take until there’s nothing left

There aren’t two options
Stop thinking that way
No success, no failure, no art
Just pieces of you
Standing still isn’t wrong
Moving forward isn’t right

You are exactly where you need to be

Who said I had to be anything
To set myself on fire?
No, this is good for now
I don’t have to hurt myself anymore


from What You Deserve, released November 21, 2015



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